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 It has been awhile since I posted...It has been a wild few months.  I was recently diagnosed with RSD/SCS in my right leg.  It has taken it's toll on me.  I am exhausted doing the little things around the house. My pain level has been high and the Dr's had me do a series of spinal blocks to calm my sympathetic nerves.  it has lessened the pain, but it's still very much there.  I have people, mostly my family thinking that my pain will go away and never come back when all the blocks are…

Most people grow up and think they will get married, have kids and live happily ever after. Then life gets in the way and you discover it doesn't always happen like that. I grew up in Utah, a culture where if you didn't get married by an early age and have a baby with in a year, there was something wrong with you. As it happens, I would be waiting for my prince charming longer then most. I was in my 30s before I got married - an old maid by most local standards. My husband already…

        I have been looking for away to express my myself in words in other ways besides my personal blog.  a blog that the world can read. anyone can read. my husbands ex can read.  I don't like the fact that she reads what I write, don't like the fact she will text my husband about some of my blog posts.  what I write is how I feel.  what I need to get out of my head.  Not for someone to critique and…

I have many things in my head to blog about but just haven't had the energy to do it.  until today.......

Over the last few weeks my head has been spinning.  I go for months at a time where I bottle things…